Sun is shinin’ in the sky
There ain’t a cloud in sight
It’s stopped rainin’ everybody’s in the play
And don’t you know
It’s a beautiful new day, hey hey
– Electric Light Orchestra
It’s been awhile since I last posted. A lot has happened would be an understatement. But just know I have left the house I built 16 years ago and now share my kids on a 50/50 schedule with their dad.
Is this what I expected 18 years ago as a bride, uh no?!?
I have lived now on my own for a month and I can say I have probably been happier in that month than I have in years. Have I cried, yes.
But probably not for the reason most would expect. I have cried because I broke someone’s heart not because I miss them.
I had that “oh fuck” moment when I realized that it was all on me for the first time in years. With that though I also realized I can do most anything (or at least know that I can use the google and outsource it.
There has been gross and exhilarating. Snaking the toilet is beyond gross. But yep, I have that handled now. Setting up the television, printer and chiminea are considered wins. Using my new charcoal grill puts me over the moon.
The other day I sat in my little rental and I realized I was actually content. I could be angry that I am being taken advantage of financially, that my in-laws had the audacity to call my parents and tell them what a sack of shit they raised, or that I am viewed a stupid, piece of pussy by some men but I choose to focus on the fact that I am finally in control of my environment. That I am surrounded by what I have chosen for me.
This weekend I finally took a break and enjoyed wine tasting with a friend in the Texas Hill Country and a trip to my beloved naked beach. And, I can tell you is there wasn’t a cloud in sight…
– The Girl