For those that know me in my real life, they know that when in doubt “I lead with my boobs”.
Never had that been so evident to me as when I looked at my fetlife page and 95% of the pictures featured them in some very visible capacity.
It made me realize how much I had come to rely on them to define my sensuality and femininity. Like I had reduced myself to a pair of boobs.
But yesterday as I sat through a diagnostic mammogram, a very long ultrasound that featured multiple technicians and a radiologist proclaim “I don’t like the look of that one bit”, I knew I may have misplaced my faith that my tits would get me through life’s ups and downs.
So now I prepare for a biopsy in a way only I can, by removing all those photos from fetlife. They no longer need to define me in any way nor be offered up without thought.
I am hopeful that my test results do not indicate cancer, but I am prepared that my value I place on myself needs to change dramatically.
– The Girl