Tonight I was supposed to go to my ladies swingers group and I just have to admit I couldn’t get “up” to dress sexy and make light conversation.
I have to be on for social events even as an extrovert and today I was flatter than a three day old opened bottle of soda.
It was a sexy sangria theme and I could have my arm twisted for sangria but today I just don’t feel sexy or fun or entertaining. And who wants a brooder at sexy sangria night?
As many know, I lost my job a few weeks back and today I had an interview. I think that took all my social niceties and optimism out of me.
Like I had a finite number of fucks to give today and it was used up in those few hours. At the end of that interview, I just felt exhausted and then ate a jello pudding cup that put me over the edge for nap time.
Today was also the first day of school and as fun as it is to get up at 6:30 to do hair and corral kids to the bus, it’s just not all I have to offer my family.
I miss the structure of a job and frankly adult conversation and wearing a uniform other than shorts and tees or sundresses. Someplace to go daily where I am required to wear a bra. Is that too much to ask?
So tonight I bowed out of the scene, not due to pride but a simple lack of endurance….
– The Girl
The Girl You'd Never Guess 